Caitlyn Jenner was nervous for many reasons prior to taking the stage at the ESPYs, but her biggest fear didn’t have to do with making her first official public appearance; it had to do with reading her speech. Jenner, who was awarded the Arthur Ashe Courage Award at this year’s event, opened up on WhoSay as part of her on-going series, The Real Me, about everything regarding the awards show, from getting glam courtesy of Donatella Versace to finally making her nerve-wracking speech. But as someone who grew up with dyslexia, she knew it wasn’t going to be easy.