Caitlyn Jenner has a lot on her mind. In a sneak preview from the July 26 premiere episode of I Am Cait, E!’s new eight-episode docu-series, Jenner admits she’s having trouble sleeping. What’s keeping her up at 4:32 a.m.? As the 65-year-old explains, she wants to be a good role model and do her part to help the transgender community. Wearing no makeup and filming herself in bed, Jenner confesses, “I feel bad that these [people]—especially young people—are going through such a difficult time in their life. We don’t want people dying over this. We don’t want people murdered over this stuff. What a responsibility I have towards this community. Am I going to do everything right? Am I going to say the right things? Do I project the right image? My mind’s just spinning with thoughts. I just hope I get it right. I hope I get it right.”